When your memory fails you; God doesn't

I have a terrible memory.  I have a bad long term memory; bits and pieces of childhood and adolescence, usually jogged by pictures or hearing a story retold (my wedding produced more than one funny story that I had no recollection of).  I often feel like something is just on the tip of my brain but out of reach.  I'll hear or read something that I think is profound enough to remember and then I find myself struggling internally to even think of what it was referring to or where I read it so I can look it up again.  If I don't write stuff down immediately, it's gone.  I keep a pretty detailed to-do list/phone lists, to keep my thoughts straight or at least I know where to look when I have that panicked, I'm forgetting something feeling.  I would consider this a weakness.  I would love to have a sharp memory, to recall Bible quotes, to remember what I went downstairs for, to not draw blanks in the middle of a conversation because I lost my train of thought.  I don't think this is age related either.  I just turned 30, I'm not going senile, it's just a part of me. 

But I have had an "A Ha" moment.  It first occurred to me when I asked my husband if he ever reads the links I post on Facebook.  I only share the articles/blogs/stories/videos that I find really impactful, many are related to motherhood, parenting or Christian faith life.  He admitted that he didn't read many of them, understandably they are not targeted at him, but if they are important to me I like him to be aware.  He felt that many of the "Mommy blogs" were along the same lines of women encouraging other women, sharing that they are not perfect moms either, that we're in this together and we need to keep it real with each other and stop comparing ourselves and always rely on God. I like to read things along these lines as I find them encouraging and a good reminder.  And that's what occurred to me.  That because I have a bad memory, or because I'm a frail human, I often read things that are written about similar subjects with a different twist by someone much more articulate than me, and I am inspired and comforted, even though it might be something I have processed before. 

I have also been seeing the tag line "Preaching the Gospel to myself", and again it hit me.  How often do I read a passage of scripture, a devotion, hear a sermon or read a book or article that seems so fresh and enlightening to me, when I have probably heard it before.  That's the power of scripture.  It is meant to be read over and over and it will impact you differently at different times.  Even the most simple truths can be so powerful when you come across them at a different time.  I heard a great metaphor the other day in my women's Bible study "Coffee Break".  A wise sister shared that it's like eating, we need to do it every day and even if we don't remember what we ate last week, it was still vital to our health.  Even if we don't remember the details of the sermon or the exact words of the scripture, when we heard it, it fed us and was important for our spiritual growth.  There will never be a time when we are done eating, learning, reading, etc.  I wish I could remember the words and citation of the passage I'm thinking of, but I know that I will spend my whole life reading and hearing the Word and it will always be fresh and exciting to me. 

The amazing thing is that although this is "news to me", it is a universal truth.  God is constantly telling us to remember in scripture, because He knows how forgetful we are.  We celebrate annual holy days, to remember.  We go to church weekly, to remember.  We read the history of God's people and His faithfulness, to remember.  We celebrate the sacriments, to remember.  We do daily personal devotion, to remember.

In conclusion, I will "preach to myself", a few of the truths that I keep coming back to and find the most encouraging in my daily walk.

• God's grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in weakness
• I am not supposed to be in control and do it on my own - only the Holy Spirit can sanctify me
• I am not meant to live a comfortable life - God wants me to be constantly dependent on Him
• I am to be content and thankful in all circumstances
• Worry is unbelief; anxiety is not acknowledging God's plan
• Don't compare yourself to others - we all have different gifts and abilities 
• Be Humble - don't think less of yourself but think of yourself less
• Don't try to be super mom/do everything - do a few things well

With a Bushel and a Peck of blissful ignorance,

Stephanie

Cute as a Button Shortbread Cookies

Christmas is next week!  I am feeling really excited and not stressed at all this year.  I've been enjoying decorating and baking and going to Christmas concerts and parties.  I don't have a stand by, make every year, Christmas baking recipe yet, but I'm working on it.  My husband loves shortbread.  I don't mind it but it's not irresistible to me.  But that's OK, then I can keep my fingers out of the cookie jar.  I wanted to try something a little more fun for the ones that I would be sharing.  Here's what I came up with...

I used a standard shortbread recipe

2 cups butter
1 cup icing sugar
3 cups flour
1 cup cornstarch
2 tsp vanilla extract

• Cream together butter and icing sugar
• Combine flour and cornstarch - add to butter and mix until smooth without over-mixing
• Add vanilla while mixing

• Divide dough into 2 equal portions
• Using Wilton Icing Color, add the desired color to each section and knead in until blended
• Wrap each ball in plastic wrap and chill for 30 min (can be frozen and used at a later time)

• When ready to bake, preheat oven to 300 F and line 2 cookie sheets with parchment paper

• Between 2 sheets of parchment, roll out the first color until about 1/4 inch thick (if your dough is over chilled, you might have to let it rest at room temp for a while or you will hurt yourself trying to roll it out)

• Using a larger circle cutter (mine was about 3") cut out 12 rounds and place on cookie sheet

• Using a smaller circle cutter (about 2") cut out the middles and place on a separate sheet

 

• Put the first tray back in the fridge while you roll out your second color and cut out the shapes

• If your rings crack like mine did you can gently press them back together before baking

• Put the opposite color center in each ring

 

• Using a straw, poke out 2 (or 4) holes in each middle

 

• I kept one sheet in the fridge as I worked so they are chilled when they go in the oven and won't spread out
• Bake at 300 F for 12 min (Don't over bake)

• Allow to rest on cookie sheet for a couple minutes before transferring to a cooling rack

 This made 5 dozen with a few to taste.

I think I'll add this to the annual baking list.  They could be done in any color combo and used for any occasion; baby shower perhaps?

With a Bushel and a Peck of Christmas Baking,

Stephanie

No Perfect Pictures

My son is in Grade 1.  I had a bit of a hard time with him going to school every day.  To be honest, it's a little easier when he's gone, just one less variable.  But I do miss him and I feel like my days of being the major influence in his life are dwindling.  If he hasn't learned it yet then when will I have a chance to teach him?  Today is a day off school.  So far it has been chalk full of teachable moments.  Although challenging, I am just bursting with praise to God that I still have the opportunities to speak into my son's young life.  I pray and hope that what has transpired today impacts him in a lasting way.

It started off with him hitting his sister.  Dad stepped in with the discipline and told him he wouldn't get his colouring supplies back until he was being more kind.  He felt remorseful for a time but then made another bad choice.  The older 2 had been reading a kid's story book Bible together and having a great time.  My daughter was saying "Jesus is awesome" and my son saying "reading the Bible is so fun!"  But in no time, the little sister became implicated and my son lashed out.  How quickly they/we stray.  After being sent to his room for a time, he prayed for forgiveness and self control.  This led to an enthusiastic idea to write the fruits of the Spirit down so they don't forget.  He got out the papers and markers (with permission), and included his sisters.  It was all going well; pictures of fruit accompanied by words; until he made a mistake.  He crumpled it up and threw it in the garbage.  At this point it had been a really careful and nice picture and the mistake was minor.

The connection to God just came so seamlessly.  "God doesn't expect you to be perfect, and I don't expect your picture to be perfect.  God loves you the way you are and he never crumples you up and throws you in the garbage".  This was a long process of reitterating the same idea until he finally came around to cutting off the mistake.  It was still crumpled but had potential.  I told him he had to finish it and I would hang it on the wall as planned.  I told him he had to learn perseverence (finishing something without quiting).

When it was finally coloured, I hung it up as promised, and told him I loved the picture just like God loved him.  He said that he thought the mistake was too big and I said that there is no mistake too big for God to forgive.  He was very upset at this time and hard to console, but I took the time to pray with him for peace.  He was very concerned that God lets bad things happen.  Again the teachable moment came: that God doesn't want us to do things perfectly by ourselves, otherwise we wouldn't need Him.  God wants us to rely on him and trust him.  His strength is made perfect in our weakness.

This message came through loud and clear to me today.  Even as a write this, my son is moping about, feeling contrite, but I think it's OK.  I keep telling him that he is in control of his choices, to have a good attitude, to choose to be kind, to choose to trust God.  Even as I say this I know that without the Holy Spirit, our own efforts are futile, but to pray and contemplate the fruits of the Spirit; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control, can keep your mind on track.  If I had taken a different approach today, to let him throw out his picture and move on with the day, I might have missed this opportunity to teach him and bond with him.  He's at an age where we can communicate on a deeper level and this is exciting to me. I hope and pray that the times he is home, I can connect with him, to make up for all the time that he is away.

With a Bushel and a Peck of Gladness,

Stephanie

A Birch Wood Advent

Today is the first Sunday of Advent and December 1, which makes it a full 24 days till Christmas.  I am so excited for Advent this year as we are trying to establish family traditions surrounding it; for counting down and contemplating.  Last year was the first year I really made point to not only count down the days with the kids with their Candy Calendar, but read daily devotions and focused on the meaning of the season. 

This year for my 30th birthday my husband gave me a book by Ann Voskamp called "The Greatest Gift".  This was 2 weeks ago, and I had never heard of Ann Voskamp.  Wow, where had I been?  Rural Canadian mom of 6 turns New York Times best seller.  I'm impressed.  Read some of her blog, A Holy Experience, and I'm inspired. 

However, beyond the author is the story of the Jesse Tree, which I had never heard of.  It is another way to mark the days of Advent and see how the entire Bible has been leading to the coming of Christ.  It is made up of daily readings and ornaments and I am excited to begin this journey and share it with my family.  Ann had offered free printable ornaments on her website with a code found in the book (sorry, can't share).  But I thought, if this is something I am going to do every year (because it seemed that cool to me) then I want an ornament I can keep. 

I've been really in to birch wood lately, and I had some from a tree we cut down.  I asked my husband (and he so sweetly obliged), to cut a log in to 25 disks.  I then printed the 2x2" symbols on card stock, and Modge Podged them to the wood.  I also wrote the corresponding Bible verse with each one as an added reminder of the association behind the symbol.  I used red ribbon to make a hanger as the Word is connected by a Scarlet cord. 

Today I read the first devotional with my family, it is so beautifully written. My son in Grade 1 had heard about the Jesse Tree in school (love Christian school!) and he hung the first ornament on the bottom and we will work our way up to Christ. 

Here I have all 25 displayed temporarily.  I decided to use my actual Christmas tree as our Jesse Tree as I think the ornaments are beautiful, meaningful and will fill up the tree nicely.  I'll come back and post a finished picture at the end of the month. 

Continuing with my affinity for birch wood, my husband broke out the tools again by drilling holes into this log to make an advent candle holder.  I hadn't found anything I liked online or in stores, and this was simple enough yet visually impactful to me. 

And finally, nothing to do with Advent, but I used some more birch logs, and some thrift store finds, to make this display for my front step. 

This Advent I am going to try to focus on Peace and Thankfulness and not get caught up in the busy or buying.  I love Ann Voskamp's line, "put space in the pace of the season and find peace."  Remembering to be thankful for what we already have and for what is sure to come; to have high expectations for the coming of Jesus over what comes in wrapping and bows. 

With a Barrel and a Heap of Waiting,

Stephanie

Crochet Soother Chain

2 posts in one day – Wow, I must really be avoiding cleaning.

Here’s a very simple crochet pattern – it only takes about ½ an hour and voila – your baby has a decorative and functional soother chain, easily washed and can be remade when it gets too ratty.

I haven’t written many patterns so forgive me as I try to explain it as best I can and use a few pictures to help explain.  Hope you can figure it out – it’s pretty versatile and you can make it to your own technique too once you have the concept.

Crochet Soother Chain with Flower

Supplies

Cotton Yarn (doesn’t pill, washes well, kind of a pain to work with)

3.75 mm hook

Button with loop on the back

Suspender clip (found at the sewing store and took it apart so I was left with the clasp)

Chain 50.

Count back from your hook 15 ch and join with single crochet.

Continue sc until you reach the end.

Join your flower colour (leave a long string for sewing).

Work 8 hdc in a circle around the last sc in the chain.

Join to first hdc with slip stitch.

*Work 3 dc in same hdc, sl st to next ch* repeat from * to* finish off.

Attach your button and clasp by sewing through repeatedly until it feels secure.

Weave in ends.

 With a Barrel and a Heap of Crochet fun,

Stephanie

Under the Sea Birthday Party

I haven’t blogged anything in a while.  Life has been full and fun but maybe not anything notable or inspiring to write about.  We did have a busy birthday season last month with my one year old, followed by my Father-in-law’s 65^th and then my 3 year old.  It was a busy three weeks filled with decorating, baking and celebrating.  I particularly loved my 3 year old’s birthday.  Considering she is child #3 and was turning 3 on October 3, I thought she should get as special a party as possible (and I shouldn’t slack off just cause I overdid it with the first one’s and now I’m feeling “done” with elaborate birthdays).   

I’ve always thought birthdays are special and a time for each child to be in the spotlight.  Cate was on a Nemo kick for a long time so I had been thinking about an under the sea party for a while.  However, she recently changed allegiance to Little Mermaid, but it was still along the lines I was planning.  I chose to not over do the “Disney” aspect and went with the “Under the Sea” theme.   

My patient and wonderful husband put up the streamers the night before while I finished the cake.  

I tried to keep it simple as the kids are only 3 (some still 2 ½).  I opted to do a drop off party, even though they are still young, I had enough adult helpers and it is easier to focus on the kids if you aren’t trying to entertain the parents as well.  Plus our house would be too full and it was too chilly for an outside party.   

We started with a relatively simple craft, but since they are so young they needed a lot of adult help.  I thought this was so fun, unique and could be done with many different materials.  

Fish bowl art

Supplies:

Sandwich plastic bags

Pre-cut blue card stock

Pre-cut fish shape

Pre-cut fin shapes

Googly eyes

Bendaroos (waxy string) cut in half

Rice

Glue sticks (1 per 2 kids)

 

We handed out the supplies one at a time and let the kids assemble them.  You can see my 6 year old’s is what it was supposed to look like.  The other is my 3 year olds creative flare coming through.  They don’t care if it’s perfect, it’s just something fun to do and take home.

 Next we did cake.  I kept it pretty simple as kids don’t tend to eat a lot of cake and I have thrown out a lot of cake in the past.  The kids each got a cupcake and the small cake was left over for the next day.  

 We played a few simple games:

my teacher husband put his creative juices into "Pin the Tentacle on the Jelly fish".

There was also, pass the tissue paper ball (wrap a candy in a layer of tissue paper and add candy in different coloured paper until you have a big ball with enough candy for each kid.)  You pass it around the circle while the music is playing and whoever is holding it when the music stops gets to rip off one layer and eat a candy.  Pretty simple but still needed guidance at this age to keep it going.

I had a bit of a fishing station set up with dollar store rods and magnetic creatures.  And there was a bean bag toss. 

For lunch it was fun and kid friendly.  Octopus hot dogs (simply cut half into 6 and boil, they curl up nicely).  

 Grapes on a stick (cause anything on a stick is fun).  Fish in Jello cups (these didn’t look as good as I hoped, the gummy fish got really slimy).  

 

 Rainbow fish crackers.  And juice (coloured blue with food colouring).  Kids don’t tend to eat much at parties so be prepared to throw out leftovers.

We then had a bit of a gift opening.  And then the party moved outside to whack the piñata.  I don’t always get a piñata but my kids have learned to associate parties with piñatas and this was Cate’s first one, she was so excited.  The little kids couldn’t break it and even the big kids didn’t do much damage.  In the end we dumped out the candy and the piñata hangs in her room intact.

This was one of the least stressed I felt about a party and it went off without a hitch.  I’m so glad I could give my little girl the party of her dreams.  

With a Bushell & a Peck of Party Time,

Stephanie

When I am weak...He delights in me

Motherhood, like the Christian journey, is a process of dying to the old and finding joy in the new.  There is a steady tension there but gradually, the things we struggle with will give way to new traits that we didn't think possible when we started out.

I am 6 1/2 years in with 4 children now and the things that were hard with the first aren't as hard with the fourth, but I still struggle with some things over and over.  For example, I am finally getting up before the kids and getting my shower in, which does help our morning routine go smoother.  However, that impatient, angry outburst side of me keeps rearing it's ugly head, even though I think I should be better than that by now.  The key here, I am realizing, is not trying harder to get better or do better, it is in admitting that I am weak and in need of grace.

I have been trying to figure things out for the past few weeks; my role as a Homemaker, how to best utilize my time, how to be on top of things and feel in control.  After all, this gig should be getting easier as the kids grow up and some are at school sometimes right?  But over the past couple of days I have been bashed over the head reminded in reading, in preaching and in prayer that God is my strength.  When I'm feeling weak, out of control, over thinking things and trying to figure it all out, God says I am strong, I am in control, I have a plan and I want you to lay it all down.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

I know my calling is to be a Homemaker, it is what I have chosen and it works for our family.  I have always wanted to be there for my kids when they are home and a constant in their life.  I love the idea of volunteering at school and making things that I see on Pinterest, just because it's special (not necessary).  However, reality is either more than I can manage or, I even catch myself thinking I'm not doing enough, how can I be more productive?  I feel lost, overwhelmed, and anxious on bad days and found, confident and peaceful on good days.  I'm not sure this will ever go away, but I do know that God is my constant.

God doesn't want us to find a place of comfort and stay there.  He will always find a way to challenge us and grow us, even if it seems like we're just getting good at something or life is nice right now.  "Anything that I felt capable of doing,  God will both make it seem impossible and simultaneously ask me to do it. And there I am – in the sweetest place you can ever be – relying on Him. Walking in faith. Living in joy."  (Excerpt from Rachel Jankovic at Femina).  He will provide for us "...from strength to strength" Psalm 84:7.  I also know that my strength will be renewed and my day laid out more clearly, if I seek God in prayer and Bible reading.  When neglecting, those 2 things how quickly my attitude, actions and relationships spiral out of control.  Again, it has been made clear to me lately that these things should be a priority in my day and God will bless me through them.  They should not be a duty or a chore, but my life-line and desire.

"With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may bring to fruition your every desire for goodness and your every deed prompted by faith." 2 Thessalonians 1:11

This is my prayer, not that I can fill my day with busy tasks, but that God may bless my desire to do my job well and faithfully, always seeking His guidance and will.  I am trying to take every thought captive, make every emotion accountable, make every action obedient, to the God of grace, to Christ who saves.
 
It may seem unnatural to admit weakness and to be submissive, but the Lord loves the poor of spirit and the contrite heart, whose only hope is found in Him. 

"Let not the wise boast of their wisdom
    or the strong boast of their strength
    or the rich boast of their riches, 
 but let the one who boasts boast about this:
    that they have the understanding to know me,
that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
    justice and righteousness on earth,
    for in these I delight,”
declares the Lord."
                    Jeremiah 9:23 

My only reason, meaning, purpose is to delight in the Lord, because He first delighted in me.  

"He rescued me, because he delighted in me."  Psalm 18:19

With a Bushel and a Peck of Delight,

Stephanie

Linking up with Grace Laced today, with a poignant post about Mom Anger and as always, going back to the Word.